Anonymous asked: 6, 30, 42
6—Who my best friends are. This is a tough one…I have really been blessed with so many people in my life who I’ve grown to be extremely close with, but like all relationships they change with locations and the like. It’s hard to determine who is “best” because everyone means something different to me—people who I was closer with when I was younger still hold a very dear and equally significant place to the people who I see on a daily basis, and am still developing a strong relationship with. I don’t really like to name drop because that feels awful Myspace-y. One I will mention is Stefanie, however—this girl got me through literally everything in high school, and we still maintain a strong relationship even though she’s across the country. Of anyone in my life, she’s probably had the biggest impact on me as a person.
30—2 of my insecurities. Is it kind of weird that people on here want to know what I’m insecure about so much?
1. I’m not good enough for guys who I find attractive, or I make a complete ass out of myself whenever I make an attempt #normalgayboywhining. Picking up guys has never really been a strong suit, or letting it happen for that matter. I can come off kind of closed off and icy—I really don’t want to , but chock it up to my insecurities. I’m workin on it though.
2. I think everyone has the insecurity that they’re all alone in the war they’re fighting, but I can feel really isolated at times. It’s self-inflicted, and I know I’m not as crazy as I tell myself I am, but yeah more or less. I could be more whiny about it but I hate sounding like a complainer. I guess I fear at times that people will leave me…and that’s a cold place to sit in. So I try to snap myself out of when I can. The Marina and the Diamond’s lyric explains it pretty well, “I feel like I’m the worst, so I always act like I’m the best.” I can be icy…but it’s a pretty thin sheet you just have to break to see me for who I really am.
42—Do I like where I am now? Well right now, I am sitting on my computer, in my apartment, at Michigan State University, with my amazing and hilarious roommates meters away from me—I’m 20, in shape, dancing for hours every day, and have the rest of my life ahead of me. Yes, I do like where I’m at right now =) But ask me tomorrow, and I may say that I feel like my world is crumbling in an overwhelming stress and identity crisis tidal wave. Soo depends on the hour haha. Sometimes I’m a complete mess and sometimes I’m fine—depends on when you catch me
